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Tuesday 20 March 2007

Id be better off if i keep my mouth shut. I can't speak, i can only feel. Maybe someday i'll turn myself into Hellen Keller by puncturing my ears with a knife, then cutting my voice box out. I purposely keep myself niave and away from so called the "social life" because its the only way to a void a jaded attitude. So ive been couping myself at home away from social life ever since the holidays started. Since then, i've been hanging out only with my best friend who lives a block away from here. Ive been hooked on to his game console for this moment but i got disgusted ever since i started to lose, lose and lose! I dont feel like playing anymore but the desire that attracts to it is far from what i expected. If you want to know what it feels like, then put on parachute, go up in plane, shoot a good amount of heroine into your veins and immediately follow that with a hit of nitrous oxide and then jump. Or set yourself on fire. Just before i fall asleep and when im really bored I..laydown and think for a while until i fall into a semi hypnotic state, some called it daydreaming, some called it thinking, but in this particular state of mind i forgot to think. Everything was just as blank as a piece of paper. Seriously.

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